lovers go and lovers come
awandering awondering
but any two are perfectly
alone there's nobody else alive

- e.e.cummings

I've been day-dreaming about traveling lately. Bookmarking places I want to go once I have the money. I've decided my favorite section in the Times is the Travel section. They had a wonderful slide show on the NYTimes website, a compilation of photos and stories from different people around the world explaining why they travel. This one guy said:

“I like to travel for three fundamental reasons: first, to get to know the culture of the place — meeting people, learning how they live, what they do, what they think, what their worries are. Second is the history of the place. And third is architecture, sculpture and art."

I wholeheartedly agree with him. When I travel I want to dive right into the culture, and learn as much as I can. Taste their different foods and dance their dances. Then, capture beautiful and memorable pictures to share with all my friends.

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I asked my best friend Li Ling,

"What happens when your dreams are better than your reality?"

She said,

"Then you just keep this dream in your heart and let it drive your ambitions for a better reality."

I couldn't have answered it better myself.

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Sometimes late at night I have these great conversations with my friends, here's one on love.

Jelly: why are you suppressing your love?

Cookie: love is too much trouble, makes you too vunerable

Jelly: but it is beautiful when it is right

Cookie: don't worry though, my love for you is always there

Jelly: makes you feel high and like you can fly

Jelly: and really when you're in love, the whole world really does shrink

Cookie: except you won't go to jail, and you would actually die if you jump off a bridge

Jelly: and its just you and her

Cookie: yea you're right haha

Cookie: guess you are like that girl in He's Just Not That Into You and I'm the guy that you end up with in the end. I'm awful with names.. I don't remember hahaha

Jelly: we are too romantic

Jelly: what?! how do you figure that

Jelly: I don't want to be such a romantic person

Jelly: i want to be more logical

Cookie: you are a girl lol girls are usually drive by their emotions man

Jelly: smart girls hide their emotions

Jelly: stomp on them til they die

Cookie: lol

Cookie: that's cold

Cookie: so the emotion just doesn't come back?

Cookie: that sucks

Jelly: and a tiny voice will be like "help"

Cookie: wow you italicize and lower the font size

Cookie: nice

Jelly: so what did she say?

Jelly: I'm so confused

Cookie: she said somewhere around the lines of

Cookie: "I may dissect each little thing and put myself out there so much but at least that means that I still care. Oh! You've think you won because women are expendable to you. You may not get hurt or make an ass of yourself that way but you don't fall in love that way either. You have not won. You're alone. I may do a lot of stupid shit but I'm still a lot closer to love than you are."

What is your take on love?

Camera phone pic of the week:



a bear hiding in this tree

young girls

Today my 1st grade girls were singing Rihanna's Rude Boy song...

Little Alana & Alexa: "Come here, rude boy, boy; can you get it up?
Come here rude boy, boy; is you big enough?"

Me: *gasp "Girls why are you singing that song? It's naughty!"

Alana: "What does naughty mean?"

Me: Haha...

Alana & Alexa: "Our parents let us sing it."

Me: "Well.. then I guess it's okay..."

Scary dreams

Last night I was woken up by a very scary dream. =(
In the dream I was walking down a crowded street, talking on my cell with my mother. I noticed an old man walking with a cane in front of me. Suddenly, he dropped his cane and he slowly fell forward. "Oh, sh*t!!" I run to the old man, tap him a little and then shake him a little (yes, I know you shouldn't shake someone who has fallen over.) I was about to turn him over but then I realized I should really dial 9-1-1. But, I was shaking so bad I couldn't press the numbers. I think I tried to scream for help, but my voice was very weak and it cracked. Anyhow, I woke up before I was able to successfully call the cops.
=( creepy dream... it was so dark and dreary

Is this how I'd really react when there's an emergency? completely helpless?

I drove to classes early today to complete some paperwork. Commuting to classes leaves me feeling strangely aloof. I don't feel that I'm a part of the community at all.

It was pretty cold today, I watched the light snow swirl across the parking lot, so beautiful and almost magical. I walked quickly to my car to get out of the cold. Still, I was mesmerized by the swirling snow and the stillness of the campus.

My professor caught me daydreaming in class yesterday. It was quite embarrassing.. she called on me while I was twirling my hair... and when my eyes met hers, I knew that she knew I haven't been paying attention. lols. I had to ask her to repeat the question. Yikes :P

I flipped on the tube while eating a late dinner and happily discovered American Idol was on! My, oh my does this show get my emotions running. As I watched contestants receive the judges' decision, tears ran down my cheeks and chills went down my body. I think I feel this emotional because I can see how much these singers want to be one of the top 24. It's another step in obtaining their dreams, fixing their lives... a struggle that every one of us goes through in our lives.

beginnings?

I am feeling quite nervous at the moment, more stressed than I would like. This week is all about preparations, completing paperwork, scheduling classes... etc, etc.

I drove to the Adelphi university's campus today with Li Ling. I plugged in my GPS and located my point of interest. We hit traffic on the L.I.E. (no surprise there) I really hope I don't have to drive through traffic throughout the week. (please, please, please) We tried to locate Harvey Hall, but ended up circling the campus three times without any success. As for the campus' surroundings, I will give it a 4/10. The houses around the area are really beautiful but I'm not a fan of the stores and convenience stops. It looks like a small town but without the charm of the set on Gilmore Girls. Hehe, was it silly of me to hope for something of the likes of NYU or Columbia? I am so silly.

Hrmm.. what would life be like, if there were less uncertainties?


Does the sunscreen song The Sunscreen Song leave any impressions upon you?

I'd like to remember this part: "Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind...the race is long, and in the end its only with yourself."
Actually I really like this song, it's just hard to remember all the messages in it.

Also this: "Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum." So, put a smile on that beautiful face of yours... no worries!

Happy thoughts

Grandma: "What are your and your sis' sizes in shirts?"
Me: "I don't want any presents Grandma, inviting us all over is enough!"
Grandma: "I can't tell Santa what to do."
Me: "Silly grandma, I don't believe in Santa anymore."
Grandma: "Uh-oh, he's going to put you on his naughty list this year."


5 year old Alana: "Who was that?"
Me: "That was her boyfriend."
Alana: (Pauses.) "Do you have a boyfriend?"
Me: "Nope."
Alana: "How come everybody but you has a boyfriend?"
Me: "Because I am ugly."
Alana: *Looks over at me "No, you are not, you are pretty."
Me: "I am ugly and I am a monster."
Alana: "No you're not! I'll ask your mom."

lol, so cute.